byk bnda nk tulis sbnrnye....
tp nnt2 laaa.....
penat lagik nih.....
bwu jek smpai melaka pg td.....
pape pon,
tggu la post baru ek....
ade yk nk ltk kat blog nih.....
so tggu la yeh.....
papai2......

~WheN You'rE GonE - Pt.2~

last night.....
aku tidoq cukup2 sbb penat ngat keje
dr kol 8 mlm smpai la pagi esok nye...
gile ah tido...da lame x tido kaw2....
bgn kol 6 pagi,
siap nk solat subuh
n pastu gua g jog tepi pntai..
dlm mase same,
tgn x benti belek enset...
tot tet tot tet tkn button enset tu....

even tidoq ku cukup,
tp pg td seyesly wat aku rase x tenteram
nak2 lg pas msg ngan B smlm
n spnjg jog tu
aku baca smula msg2 smlm
smbil dgr mp3..

dlm x sedar,
mate da berair,
nafas da x tentu hala,
lari da bengkang bengkok,
lastly aku benti...
jln slow spnjg pntai
ikot jek mane kaki aku mlangkah
pale otak da jauh mlayang da
ntah ke mane,
aku pon x tau....

dlm mase same,
lagu2 mp3 pon mainkan lagu
sgt kena ngan perasaan aku
pas bace msg2 tu
otak aku kusut
perasaan aku celaru
ati aku berkecamuk
ngan mcm2....

tp deep down
aku dpt rase
ni la dugaan yg Allah bg
bg pd aku,sbb Dia
nk test aku ni insan yg beramal atau pon x
nak uji stakat mane percaye aku pd Dia
n stakat mane aku leh thn ngan dugaan
yg Dia sedikan khas utk aku
n dlm jog pg td
aku dpti dlm idop ni
kalu xde usaha
mmpi xkan jd nyata

tp aku xnk mmpi aku jd nyata
sbb da byk hari aku asik dpt nightmare jek
plak tu pas nightmare tu B cite
bnda yg same dlm mmpi aku
mane x cuak...
so dlm jog pg td,
aku da decide
n aku da tanam dlm2
aku akan kotakan janji aku..
aminnnnnn........

p/s: buat B.....dgn ini, sayaRaja Muhammad Farid selaku "Oni" ingin berjanji.....
I'LL NEVER GIVE UP EITHER GIVE YOU UP..AND I PROMISE,ONE DAY I WILL WIN YOUR HEART AGAIN AS A TRUE FINE MAN,WHICH IS UNDISPUTED BY ANY OTHER MAN.....THAT'S MY PROMISE....

~WheN You'rE GonE - Pt.1~

I always needed time
on my own
I never thought I'd
need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years
when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much
I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear
to always get me through
the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
reminds me of you
And the clothes you left,
they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you,
I love the things that you do

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were,
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do,
I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe
I need to feel you here with me

~A LetteR FoR mY MummY~

dear MOM,

you are my mother
and i am your son
who always make your head
never end thinking of me
and never ending

care for me
since i was
inside your womb
until i was a big man now
and yet still you must
taking care of me

dear MOTHER,
you gave birth to unfaithful son
i always keep your heart broken
even since i was a small child
until i am a grown man
i still
need protection from you
i still
depending on you
i still
pain in the ass for you
and i still
the one you always loved

dear MAMA,
why is it?
why is that?
why?
why you keep pretending
pretending to keep
your face happy
even this son
your son
keep breaking your heart
keeping up
hurt your feelings
keeping up
make you sad
keeping up
make you cry
and yet
you still smile
like there nothing
ever happen

dear UMMI,
i always waking up late
always late for solah
and yet you keep waking me up
keep reminding me
of becoming a good Muslim
even i
your son
never been used to you
whenever you need me
but yet
you still
give me room to comfort me
to relax me
to please me
to care for me
to love me
to take care of me
even i know
deep inside
you are hurt
for what have i done to you

dear EMAK,
i am sorry
for never be what
you always wanted
what you
always wish
i am sorry
i never keep my promise
even you always
have faith in me
i am sorry
because your son
this son
always fail you
always turn you down
always creating up mess
that you never forgive
but yet
you still be forgiven
you still be proud
you still be happy
for your son
even i know
and you know
that whatever
i have done
never been good to anyone

dear MILADY,
even i know
whatever i have done
never pleased you
never good enough for you
but i am grateful
very thankful
because of you
are my lovely mother
and only you
the place i always want to be
the place i always be
whenever i hurt
whenever i sad
whenever i cry
whenever i am mad
whenever i am down
whenever i am not myself
it all gone
whenever i am
in your
lovely
caring
comfort
calming hug

dear
MOM, MOTHER, MAMA, UMMI, EMAK, MILADY,
I LOVE YOU
FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART

~A LetteR FoR mY DaddY~

dear DAD,

i am your son
and you are my DAD
we have this relation
since you make me inside
my MUM womb
and she delivered me
to live in this world

dear PAPA,
you are the one
who show me
the truth of life
you thought me of survival
and you fill me with
lot of knowledge
from i was a little boy
until i am what i am now

dear ABI,
you tied me to a tree
when i was 6
you hit me with a stick
when i was 8
you slap me
when i was 12
but i don't have any grudge against you
for your beating
for your tie action
for your slap
all just because
you want me to understand
the way of Islamic life
to be a true Muslim


dear FATHER
you always tell me
never to follow your steps
never be a brute
never be a forceful person
never be a weakling
but
i will follow you
as you are my greatest role model

dear ABAH,
you are the head of our family,
you are the leader of your sons
you are the comforter of your daughter
you are the lover to our lovely mother
and yet you are the protector of us all
you are the source of happiness
and yet you are the place we seek justice
you are the navigator
that determines the way of
your family sail
you are the only one
FATHER OF ALL KIND

dear DAD, PAPA, ABI, FATHER, ABAH
WE LOVE YOU

~TireD~

wah...
so tired la today...
td g bussiness trip kat kay eL...
8 jam pg n pulang....
letih ooo....
so i decide
esok je la tulis blog...
haha....
da la ponteng keje spnjg ari...
lg mau rehat...
haha....
so..
esok je la ek....
hehe...
sori smua.....
(^o^)V

~MiserY~

To live in this cruel world
Is to see what you don't want to see
To know what life meant
Sacrifice your need

Years of torturing ourselves
Chasing our own destiny
Taken away without sympathy
Leave us to rot in poverty

In every corner and dark street
You'll see their eyes are laughing at you
Fear won't lose its grips
There's nothing you can do

Nobody cares to stop them
Nodody cares what happens to me
No one hears my endless scream
Save me from my misery

There are so many paths to choose
So many ways to live
So many ways to end a dream
We still remain,
your cruelty won't change
Our laughter and cries are still the same

You have your own story
You have a few mouths to feed
Feeding them with your own sin
Satisfy their need

If it happens to you my friend
Tell me how you'd feel
You meet someone without honesty
Someone else is laughing endlessly

~LasT NighT~

last night

i make a call
an important call
more important to any other calls
one short call
to my beloved babe

assalamualaikum...
hey there...
how are you tonight??
have your dinner already??
what you doing??
been missing me??
of course i damn miss you...
bla bla bla bla....

no matter what
that call reveals everything
i need to know
and what i must do
i must go on
with the hope tha
t the wishes will
becoming true

so my beloved ones
there always one thing
i always wanted to say to you
to say it out loud
it begins from that day
to the day after
and the day after that
and the next day
until the end of days
i just want you
to really know
and really sure
that i always

LOVE YOU FOREVER
FROM THE BOTTOM
OF MY HEART

~BungA~

merana
kini aku merana
bunga impian yang
entah ke mana
sendiri
diriku di laman sepi
tiada tempat tuk
bercurah lagi

merana
kini aku merana
bunga impian yang
hilang di mata
ku rindu
tutur sapa mu nan manja
saat kau berada
di sisiku

kini tinggal aku sendiri
hanya berteman dengan sepi
menanti dirimu kembali
di sini ku terus menanti
akan ku cuba untuk
menanti
dirimu kekasih

oh bunga
di mana kini
kau berada
jangan tinggalkan diriku
dalam keseorangan

oh bunga
jangan kau gores
luka di dada
sungguh diriku
takkan kuasa
nyalakan kenangan

ohhh...... BUNGA KU..... (T_T)

~I'm MissinG YoU~

~Stick WitH U~

i'm gonna stick with u
for the rest of my life
i'm gonna stick with u
no matter what we going through
i'm gonna stick with u
for what u are to me

i'm gonna stick with u
for every breathe i take
for the every word i speak
for the every heart beat
i'm gonna stick with u


i'm gonna stick with u
till the end of days
till my body decays
till my bones less astray
i'm gonna stick with u

i'm gonna stick with u
no matter what will u do
no matter whatever i do
i'll stick with u
because we know the truth
that i always love u
and i will never leave u
because only Allah knows
how much i can't live without U

Houri bebeh....
i will, and always will LovE U from the bottom of My HeaRt...

~UntitleD~

Sayangku....
diriku ingin selalu disamping mu
diriku ingin menyentuh mu
diriku ingin menatap wajah mu
diriku ingin mendakap mu
diriku ingin membelai mu
diriku ingin mengucup mu

Sayangku....
diriku ini amat menyayangi mu
diriku ini amat mengasihi mu
diriku ini amat merindui mu
diri ini terlalu menyintai diri mu
kerana hanya kau yang satu
Ratu yang bertakhta di hatiku

Sayangku....
hatiku kini bergelora
hatiku kini semakin sengsara
akibat perasaan rindu yang terlalu membara
membara sehingga membakar jiwa
jiwaku yang rapuh kerana terlalu menyintaimu
sepenuh jiwa ku
sepenuh raga ku
sehingga tiada apa
yang mampu menggugat kedudukan mu
di hati ku
hanya kerana dirimu
kekasih sejati buat diriku
yang terlalu menginginkan mu...

Sayangku....
di saat ini
di ketika ini
ingin ku nyatakan kembali
betapa diriku amat menyintai
betapa diriku amat menyayangi
dirimu yang hanya kini
menjadi sebuah memori
kepada diriku ini...

Sayangku...
kau lah pujaan hatiku
kau lah punca kekuatan ku
punca kegembiraan ku
punca segala punca bagi diriku
kerana hanya dikau lah kekasihku
yang ku terusan menunggu
sehingga ke akhir hayatku

I LOVE U

~DemI CintA SucI~

Demi Cinta Suci

Pernah hatiku luka pedih
Kerana dicalari cinta penuh duri
Lemas aku dalam dilema
Kata janji manis sungguh tak bermakna

Mencarimu kasih bagai mencari mutiara putih
Walau ke dasar lautan sanggup ku selami
Namun tak percaya apa yang telah aku terjumpa
Kau sebutir pasir tak berharga

Demi cinta yang suci
Ku rela korbankan kepentingan diri
Demi sinar bahagia
Ku hambakan diri pada-Nya yang Esa

Baru kini ku rasai nikmatnya cinta yang suci
Tiada terbanding dengan cinta yang kau beri
Ranjau yang berduri akan aku tabah menempuhnya
Menyubur iman di dalam jiwa

Demi cinta yang suci
Ku rela korbankan kepentingan diri
Demi sinar bahagia
Ku hambakan diri pada-Nya yang Esa
Demi cinta hakiki
Ku sanggup redahi apa yang terjadi

Apalah erti cinta suci
Andai janji-janji sering dimungkiri
Apalah erti cinta murni
Andai kata-kata sering didustai

~EngkaU YanG SatU~

Engkau Yang Satu

Tanpamu...
Akulah yang rindu
Tanpa dirimu...
Hilanglah manjaku
Kasihmu...
Kata naluriku
Cintamu...
Hanya dihatiku…

Izinkan aku...
Selami hatimu
Izinkan aku...
Bisikkan cintaku
Janjiku...
Pada kau yang satu
Diriku...
Hanyalah untukmu…

Engkaulah yang satu
Pujaan hatiku
Sucinya cintaku padamu
Sayangku
Hanya kau yang satu
Kasih dan rinduku...
Milikmu...

~LooK At ThE BrighT SidE~

everything has fall apart
the ship i made has completely broken
torn to pieces
tears apart
by the smash of wave
huge wave
of destiny and life challenge

i'm standing here babe
all alone
full of loneliness
inside my heart
which before
full of our love
and full of our memories
and now
it's gone
gone like the wind
blew away our song

my dear babe
where are you?
where's you've been?
what ur doin?
a lot of questions
a lot of guess
fill in my chest

you told me how to spread my wing
you teach me how to fly
yo tell me how to stand on my foot
where you are my floor
you thought me how to walk
where you are the place when I fall
you teach me how to live
where you are my only reason to live
you tell me i must survive
where you are my survivor
you thought me how to love
where you are my only love
you want me to take care
where you are the thing i care the most

my dearest babe
i am so sorry
so so sorry
for being such a child
for being such a nuisance
for being such a loser
for being such a failure
for being such a useless person
for being a mess up person
i am sorry
i wish if i could turn back time

but
i know what is important
life must go on
even without you
i must go on
i will look at the bright side
even you are my only light
don't let me fall to the darkness
where there lies
the greatness of my past

my dearest babe
i want you to stay beside me
even i can manage to walk by myself
even if i can survived this
and go on with my life
i wont let you far from my side
because
there's you
and always you
from every corner of my heart
u are my queen
you are my sunshine
you are my beloved one

I LOVE YOU