~I HatE MyselF~

yup....
dats rite...
i hate myself....
i hate myself....
why??
only Allah know why....

i try my best....
and i hate it....
why should i try my best for.....
just for a person just for a lady....
just to prove what i am capable of....
i hate myself....

i hate myself....
i play pretend that i'm ok...
i'm ok..
if u ask me i'm always ok...
there's no problem within me....
i'm ok....
as ok as the mountain....
steady through everything...

but then...
that's what you see from the outside...
it's only the mask that i wear
to fool you
to fool everyone
to fool everybody
to see that i'm ok...
but deep inside
i'm totally broken....

i hate myself....
why must i cry to know the truth??
why am i must suffer
just to sustain my faith in you??
i hate myself....
because of everything i've done...
and for that reason,
i hate myself....
i know you already hate me,
and that make me even
want to hate myself more
and more
and again

I HATE MYSELF VERY MUCH...