byk bnda nk tulis sbnrnye....
tp nnt2 laaa.....
penat lagik nih.....
bwu jek smpai melaka pg td.....
pape pon,
tggu la post baru ek....
ade yk nk ltk kat blog nih.....
so tggu la yeh.....
papai2......

~WheN You'rE GonE - Pt.2~

last night.....
aku tidoq cukup2 sbb penat ngat keje
dr kol 8 mlm smpai la pagi esok nye...
gile ah tido...da lame x tido kaw2....
bgn kol 6 pagi,
siap nk solat subuh
n pastu gua g jog tepi pntai..
dlm mase same,
tgn x benti belek enset...
tot tet tot tet tkn button enset tu....

even tidoq ku cukup,
tp pg td seyesly wat aku rase x tenteram
nak2 lg pas msg ngan B smlm
n spnjg jog tu
aku baca smula msg2 smlm
smbil dgr mp3..

dlm x sedar,
mate da berair,
nafas da x tentu hala,
lari da bengkang bengkok,
lastly aku benti...
jln slow spnjg pntai
ikot jek mane kaki aku mlangkah
pale otak da jauh mlayang da
ntah ke mane,
aku pon x tau....

dlm mase same,
lagu2 mp3 pon mainkan lagu
sgt kena ngan perasaan aku
pas bace msg2 tu
otak aku kusut
perasaan aku celaru
ati aku berkecamuk
ngan mcm2....

tp deep down
aku dpt rase
ni la dugaan yg Allah bg
bg pd aku,sbb Dia
nk test aku ni insan yg beramal atau pon x
nak uji stakat mane percaye aku pd Dia
n stakat mane aku leh thn ngan dugaan
yg Dia sedikan khas utk aku
n dlm jog pg td
aku dpti dlm idop ni
kalu xde usaha
mmpi xkan jd nyata

tp aku xnk mmpi aku jd nyata
sbb da byk hari aku asik dpt nightmare jek
plak tu pas nightmare tu B cite
bnda yg same dlm mmpi aku
mane x cuak...
so dlm jog pg td,
aku da decide
n aku da tanam dlm2
aku akan kotakan janji aku..
aminnnnnn........

p/s: buat B.....dgn ini, sayaRaja Muhammad Farid selaku "Oni" ingin berjanji.....
I'LL NEVER GIVE UP EITHER GIVE YOU UP..AND I PROMISE,ONE DAY I WILL WIN YOUR HEART AGAIN AS A TRUE FINE MAN,WHICH IS UNDISPUTED BY ANY OTHER MAN.....THAT'S MY PROMISE....

~WheN You'rE GonE - Pt.1~

I always needed time
on my own
I never thought I'd
need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years
when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much
I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear
to always get me through
the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
reminds me of you
And the clothes you left,
they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you,
I love the things that you do

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were,
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do,
I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe
I need to feel you here with me

~A LetteR FoR mY MummY~

dear MOM,

you are my mother
and i am your son
who always make your head
never end thinking of me
and never ending

care for me
since i was
inside your womb
until i was a big man now
and yet still you must
taking care of me

dear MOTHER,
you gave birth to unfaithful son
i always keep your heart broken
even since i was a small child
until i am a grown man
i still
need protection from you
i still
depending on you
i still
pain in the ass for you
and i still
the one you always loved

dear MAMA,
why is it?
why is that?
why?
why you keep pretending
pretending to keep
your face happy
even this son
your son
keep breaking your heart
keeping up
hurt your feelings
keeping up
make you sad
keeping up
make you cry
and yet
you still smile
like there nothing
ever happen

dear UMMI,
i always waking up late
always late for solah
and yet you keep waking me up
keep reminding me
of becoming a good Muslim
even i
your son
never been used to you
whenever you need me
but yet
you still
give me room to comfort me
to relax me
to please me
to care for me
to love me
to take care of me
even i know
deep inside
you are hurt
for what have i done to you

dear EMAK,
i am sorry
for never be what
you always wanted
what you
always wish
i am sorry
i never keep my promise
even you always
have faith in me
i am sorry
because your son
this son
always fail you
always turn you down
always creating up mess
that you never forgive
but yet
you still be forgiven
you still be proud
you still be happy
for your son
even i know
and you know
that whatever
i have done
never been good to anyone

dear MILADY,
even i know
whatever i have done
never pleased you
never good enough for you
but i am grateful
very thankful
because of you
are my lovely mother
and only you
the place i always want to be
the place i always be
whenever i hurt
whenever i sad
whenever i cry
whenever i am mad
whenever i am down
whenever i am not myself
it all gone
whenever i am
in your
lovely
caring
comfort
calming hug

dear
MOM, MOTHER, MAMA, UMMI, EMAK, MILADY,
I LOVE YOU
FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART

~A LetteR FoR mY DaddY~

dear DAD,

i am your son
and you are my DAD
we have this relation
since you make me inside
my MUM womb
and she delivered me
to live in this world

dear PAPA,
you are the one
who show me
the truth of life
you thought me of survival
and you fill me with
lot of knowledge
from i was a little boy
until i am what i am now

dear ABI,
you tied me to a tree
when i was 6
you hit me with a stick
when i was 8
you slap me
when i was 12
but i don't have any grudge against you
for your beating
for your tie action
for your slap
all just because
you want me to understand
the way of Islamic life
to be a true Muslim


dear FATHER
you always tell me
never to follow your steps
never be a brute
never be a forceful person
never be a weakling
but
i will follow you
as you are my greatest role model

dear ABAH,
you are the head of our family,
you are the leader of your sons
you are the comforter of your daughter
you are the lover to our lovely mother
and yet you are the protector of us all
you are the source of happiness
and yet you are the place we seek justice
you are the navigator
that determines the way of
your family sail
you are the only one
FATHER OF ALL KIND

dear DAD, PAPA, ABI, FATHER, ABAH
WE LOVE YOU