Manusia….kita selalu akan melakukan perkara-perkara di luar dugaan apabila kita tengah sedih, kecewa, marah, tertekan, muram dan kadangkala gembira juga buat kita tak sedar kita telah melakukan sesuatu yang di luar jangkaan kita sendiri….tapi itu lah manusia, bila sudah berlalu, baru nak menyesal….harap-harap kali ini apa yang saya lakukan ini betul…Ya Allah, tunjukkanlah hamba-Mu ini jalan penyelesaian terbaik…. -(T_T)-
Berapa lamakah lagi Terpaksa aku menanti Sehingga teguhnya Pendirian, di hati… Bukan hanya kepentingan Malahan keegoan Telah ku korbankan Berlimpahan kasih sayang Aku curahkan Buatmu seorang Kiranya semua itu Tak memadai bagimu Apa sebenarnya Yang kau mahu Ku tak tahu Kau hilang bila ku tiba Kau dating bila ku kecewa Terasa diri dipersenda Bilakah berakhirnya nanti Permainan sandiwaramu ini Sesungguhnya aku Tak mengerti Jika benar cinta itu buta Butakah mataku?? Berkali terluka masih jua Ku menunggu Apa yang ku inginkan Cuma kejujuran dalam percintaan Jika itu tiada Apalah ertinya Penantian ini Hanya sia-sia
December has come again….yet; I usually spend my December at home with my family (because we Malaysians always had educational facilities break at the end of the year)…but this time, for the year of 2010, it is a different one…make it very special I guessed…for the first time ever, I can enjoy a December full of classes, a December with my friends instead of my family, and then a December with rainy almost the whole day….oh did I tell you how much I love rain so much??it just like watching the whole world crying with you…it a nice feeling, and somehow I feel better because of it… Well, this December also make a difference…for the first time ever in my life, I will having my birthday during school term….for 22 years I lived, never had a year of spending time with teachers and friends for my birthday bash (as my birthday fall on December (T_T)… ), this is the first time I get present and surprise party from my friends (maybe…I wish I had one)…this very month also I witnessed my friends wedding, my sister newborn baby, my elder sister engagement, and lot of family bonding among my relatives and friends to be mentioned. So, if you asking me about December, it kind of remarkable to me, as I always get reminded how much I have grown, how much I have been hurt, how much I have been betrayed, how much I failed, how much I fall, how much I rise, how much I success, how much I get from the whole year full of surprise, and how matured I was…. Ya Allah, I wish I will have another year full of your blessing and I always seek your forgiveness, for all the sin I've done….
Yeah….i wish I could be happy…having all the things I wanted and live my life as the way I want….meet a lot of people, buy me self cool stuffs, eat delicious food, have a healthy body, having a wonderful family, a wonderful house, a powerful vehicle, an empire, and of course a lovely wive…. I wish I could be happy….life is not always as we planned it is, but it still can make us enjoy it….somehow, it is good to have your plan ruined by the reason you never know…because we always promised that Allah S.W.T have better planning for us…I hope what I'm going through will make me a better person…amin for that…. I wish I could be happy….all my time in my life, I dedicated to live my life the way it should be….be a faithful son, be a responsible brother and be a handful friend….i being loyal subject to my country and also my believes, as I do believe what should I believe in….i live all my lifetime to fulfill what I have been assigned to, to be a khalifah in this world…. I wish I could be happy….i never complained of anything that against my will, I just regret that it never as I expected…but I must be positive, keep things positive and move on…that is life, being noble and humble, only focusing on our life…we never know what will happened next, even in a split second, so we must appreciate our life before it ends… I wish…..i could be happy…….
