~mY HearT CrumbleS~

i don't know why, i don't know how....my life today become so empty, so boring and so called with never ending of sadness....i'm really sad, and i don't know for what reason i'm sad...i think of my family, i think of my friends, i think of Allah and i think of nothing else....

i wonder, when will this be end...i never wish my life would end, and i find myself couldn't wait to see what surprises waited for me in the future....i cannot regret, as i never managed to get what i liked and wanted the most, and i never satisfies enough with whatever i already had, even i always being gratefull for whatever it is...at least, i had something even though it is not as i want it....

well, as a Muslim, i been living with the faith that Allah always has something really good for us and i never doubted that....i assume every disturbance and challenges i faced today and the day before is a test from Him in order for me to get the "better thing".....that's how people are, they always wanting and eager for more, and wishing for many great things, but have we ever consider what we had done, in return for whatever wishes of us granted??

take it as a ffod for thought, and done blame me for saying we never had enough, and in spite of that we never had said "Alhamdulillah" for whatever we had, as we never trully show our appreciation...if you do, tell me how and i am ready to poke my eyes if you manage to make me believed you actually do honor the gift Allah already gave at you~

~NeveR bE ThE SamE~

i call you up whenever things go wrong...you always there you are my shoulder to cry on...i can't believe it took me quite so long,to get the forgiven mistake,its something that i might regret...it's not a secret anymore, we never be the same again...

~OuT~

i'm sorry guys...just wanna tell that i facing a bit of a problem with my laptop....so right now i can't upload any news and get online...but fear not folks, i'll be back after Chinese New Year holiday, so stay tune ok~ :)

~NeW YeaR EvE~

Tahun baru tiba lagi….sudah masuk 1 Januari 2011 meninggalkan 31 Disember 2010, hanya dalam beberapa saat…tahun 2010, semestinya menjanjikan pelbagai peristiwa sama ada suka mahupun duka, juga mencoret 1001 kenangan pahit dan manis bagi semua…sepanjang tahun 2010, banak peristiwa telah berlaku, dan semuanya telah disematkan sebagai memori dan kenangan buat aku dan semua yang masih lagi hidup di muka bumi ini…bersyukur, kerana pada ketika ini, kita masih diberikan limpah kurnia, hidayah serta ina'yah dari Allah S.W.T untuk meneruskan kehidupan dalam mengabdikan diri kepada-Nya dan mencari keredhaan-Nya di muka bumi ini, insyaAllah…

 

Well, by the time I wrote this entry, it is already 12.54 a.m, which means it is already 54 minutes past 12 midnight on 1^st January 2011…well, for the past 54 minutes I was staying in my room, watch my fellow friends singing the "aud lang syne" and some of them wishing a happy new year, singing, start up fireworks and dancing, celebrating for a new year…some, exchange their new resolution for the ew year, and some as I might add sharing their best memories of celebrating new year eve…

 

As to me, for as long as I remember, I never had a celebration of new year eve, which means, I never celebrated new years eve….if I get lucky, I can witnessed a firework nearby my place, but that rarely happened, and I somehow I disconsolate as I always dreaming of big firework….but, as I said, I never celebrated new year eve, as my family also never show an interest in the subject matter….since, we don't celebrated new year eve, so mostly during the night of new year eve we will just sit in front of the TV (usually there are lot of interesting movies aired this time, if get lucky we can get a blockbuster movies) or simply find our way to bed…and when we wake up tomorrow, I would be just as another holiday, sitting at home and do necessary chores, or simply watching TV and do our own stuff….

 

One of my friends told me that her best ever new year celebration is watching mid night movies, and then talk a walk along the beach and make their way to seven 7….for her, that was the best ever memories she could not forget, as that celebration is with her most loved ever person…so it is quite a memorial to her….well, for me, as I never end up celebrating, I can say this year celebration is the best…even apart from my family, it still the best as I can spend time with my beloved ones, even for a shorter period and not much to do actually, but I considered it as the best celebration ever in my life…

 

We just hang out together, riding a motorcycle, goes for dinner and then simply get home early….because it is special occasion, so we got a special dinner and end up with 2 slices of delicious cake from secret recipe as dessert…take a walk at the nearest garden and then play with cute kitties….even just for a few hour, it is still the best celebration of new years eve I ever had, for 22 years of living….Alhamdulillah for the gift of another great year, and I wish I could ended my life peacefully in blessing of Allah S.W.T….for my dearest babe, thank you for a wonderful night and thank you for wasting your time, spend it with me rather than spending it with your friends…I really do appreciate it a lot….

 

And, for those who asking me what about new year, what about new year resolution, I just can tell them I don't have any particular feeling for new years, just a token of appreciation of being alive and being able to fulfilled my destiny, and still given the chance to live, is good enough….Happy New Year To All…. =)